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    April 09

    夜之随想

      我以为自己一个人单枪匹马地出来,该没有那么多人事牵绊了吧,该不会再坐井观天了吧,该不会再梦里梦外一塌糊涂了吧……
      可是一下火车就立马清醒了。“哥们,请问红山广场怎么走?”……“你也去那吗,我们拼个座吧”……“这里就是康龙太子酒轩吗?”……“喂,我已经到了,你在哪呢,怎么还不来接我?”……
      什么时候,我竟然如此强烈地感觉到自己的渺茫与不知去向——小时侯跟丢了爸爸妈妈迷路?还是大学时暇心血来潮到貌似遥远的南方淘金?还是此时此地无牵无挂的流浪?
      让一个感性的孩子满世界奔走,他带回故乡的也许并不是家财万贯的“荣耀”,他奋斗得水深火热也许不见得顿悟这一切到底是为了什么,他爱得死去活来也许还不知道自己的心在哪悬着,是该挣脱还是受降。
      离家出走,离爱出走,离理想出走。都曾满腔热情,都曾执著和疯狂,也都曾自言自语着各自的信仰——总觉得自己在路上了,就已经突围,就可以放旷不羁,就能自由飞翔。
      没想到一句陌生的问候,一段陌生的路途,一次陌生的境遇,就能杀自己一个扎实的回马枪!人不是那个人,却说了一样温暖的话;事不是那件事,却做了一样乐意做的事;环境不是那个环境,却遭遇了同样的安详!我把自己在最熟悉的地方弄丢,再从一个完全陌生的地方召回。这也许就是所谓的后知后觉吧。
      在这个值得好好思量的季节,太多的生命与重量开始压迫我的胸膛。而在某个旁观者清的迷局里,我却仍在认真辨识着自己未来的方向。终归在经意不经意间,我还是默认了第三方感想:“有些事,我们明知道是错的,也要去坚持,因为不甘心;有些人,我们明知道是爱的,也要去放弃,因为没结局;有时候,我们明知道没路了,却还在前行,因为习惯了。”
      你说,有了你,我便有了横扫千军的力量;你说,有了你,生活从此不在孤独和彷徨;你说,有了你,生命就有得精彩,有得分享……我噙着泪,听得好感动,好坚强!
      多少次转身,我何尝不想就此作别江湖,厮守故乡。多少次回眸,我何尝不愿抓紧那双冰凉的手,折断涉远的目光。多少次驻足,我又何尝不希望,好好把握和珍惜那个别无所求的姑娘……
      红尘有你,我心已苍。
      生命有你,此情可长。

         08.04.08 @武汉

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